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Veteran's Day and an Etiquette Question
2003-06-04 - 8:12 p.m.
I'm flat.. and no, it's not my chest.
I'm off today. Don't ask, I have no idea why or how...I just do. It could be I'm tired (very little sleep last night thanks to the AC having issues and me worrying about it, and it was pretty warm in the house).
*shurg* I don't know. I'm back to having the need to walk out the front door of my house, choose left or right and just keep walking. Walking to where, I haven't figured out yet, but just somewhere that's not home, work or anywhere else that I have responsibilities or people know me. I'd love to find a book and just go vege for a while. Dame Anne, I envy you.
At least tonight, even the things I love aren't keeping my interest. I don't know what's up.. I feel.. FLAT. Not happy, not sad, not depressed, just flat.
Today was the first time in a long while I actually hated to look at myself in the mirror. The office building I work in has mirrors that are from the ceiling to just past your waist and while it may look good to an architect, it's positively dreadful when you're fat. I looked in the mirror as I walked past to the stalls and got a side view.... All I can say is YUCK. I opened the door and stepped out what I saw in the mirror was even worse than the side view.
I'm just feeling really discouraged and ugly. I want to drown my "sorrows" in a half gallon of Blue Bunny Bunny tracks ice cream, but that's part of what got me this way...so it's a vicious cycle and I just feel not good.
I think I'm gonna go stare at the wall for a while.
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