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Veteran's Day and an Etiquette Question
2003-03-26 - 8:29 a.m.
Lots of things to Talk about... but Nothing to say
Good Morning world!
Not much to say today, it's mroe of the same stuff, different day approach. I managed to enter 50 forms at work yesterday, so that'll keep 'em happy for at least a day or two.
The weaving list seems to be going strong. Still only 16 people, but I didn't expect to have that mayn people. I was ecstatic to get like 6. We've got lots of knowledgeable people there and the message rate is pretty good (46 messages for a total of about three days). That ain't bad, all things considered.
My sunburn is already starting to peel. Saturday to Wednesday... not a bad turn around.. and now I've got a nice base to keep from burning again.
Last night, a friend made a comment to me that the e-list I created was doing well. My reply to her was that my little self-improvement project is to "blame" for it. Had this been a year ago, I wouldn't have done it for fear of upsetting someone and a fear of making a mistake and saying or doing the "wrong thing".
I've made some very good friends that I can turn to when I need answers to those sorts of questions, and generally speaking I "go with my gut". I think that ability comes from a feeling of trusting myself to do the right thing. I wasn't able to do that before.
I've noticed that I'm a lot calmer now and I tend to take a lot more of the small things in stride than I used to. I have confidence that I haven't had in a long time.
I smile more, frown less; I have revised my way of thinking. Where I used to think "it's only a matter of time before they hurt me" now I look at the possibility of something positive and I'm finding that when I do that, I'm a lot happier.
A year ago, I was a bit of a quivering mass of "what do people think" now, while I do care about other people's opinions, it not always the basis of every decision I make. I'm not the scared little mouse I used to be, and I'm glad. It's a day to day struggle to keep working on these new things, because I've had 37 years of the old way; so it's a conscious decision.
I've made a conscious effort to be a friend, not to just do things so people like me.
And yes, finding something I'm passionate about has helped, too. Some people sing, some do Calligraphy and Illumination, others fight. I weave.
Another friend gave me a list of names that sound similar to Eilis and other names that indicate I'm a weaver, so the name change hasn't been thrown out, it's in the process of being re-vamped and I'm trying again. I'll let you know what manages to pass Kingdom and through Laurel when/if it happens.
Elizabeth is a wonderful name... it's not MY name.
Wow.. and I said there wasn't much going on.... I sure can write when I want to. Do I *ever* have a short entry?
So yeah, I guess my friend was right... I AM happier.
This was just sent from my sister.. and it speaks to me...
Please don't forget to answer my survey... it's research for a small business idea... all comments appreciated, no reasonable offer refused!!! It won't take five minutes, I PROMISE!